Inter Lacrimas et Lactum (Amidst tears and sadness)

"I shall, if I can, defy this fate, even though there will be times when I shall be the unhappiest of God's creatures ... I will seize Fate by the throat. It will not wholly conquer me! Oh, how beautiful it is to live - and live a thousand times over ! " ~ Ludwig van Beethoven


I know something of happiness
And yet 'twas not discovered with smiles
But suffered through anguished tears

You could not be witness to the affliction
But surely I am bleeding
Upon the mischance of my darkest fears

~   *   ~

What a superficial lover is fate
She warms you with her loving embrace
Then betrays you with a twist as cruel as hate
Leaving you nothing but your hapless life to retrace

~    *    ~

I live only in and for the music
Ever and always the impassioned call of the muses
Echo through my soul, and still I am despaired

By this cursed silence outside my mind
Wandering hand in hand with the demon of envy
Causing more suffering than this malady has impaired

~    *    ~

That which drove me almost to despair
And from my friends forced me to flee
Also inspired a strong conviction to be bared
A cognition fate plainly held, when she kissed me

~    *    ~

I live
I breathe
I bleed
and always . . . I play on



Note: It must be credited to this brilliant artist for not only the inspiration furnished me to write this, but the title of the piece as well.  -- ever does he move and inspire. 

Temptation

Life now moves to the rhythm of you

It dips into the flavour of my desire 

directing ripples of colour through

my black and white haze

I want to taste your music

to move inside your symphony 

where the walls cave around me

in an earthquake of ecstasy

I want to sway

to kiss the essence of your mystery

to pull it so tightly to me, all the edges

of love spill out the sides and cover me

And when I have consumed the elixir of your soul

I shall long to taste it once more ~ 

Classic Serenity

Finally quenched this insatiable thirst to attempt a waterfall. First one and I think it's not half bad. :) This is one of those paintings that I would just LOVE to dive into. The searing tranquility and quiet of this is so entirely appealing. Anyone who has been following this blog understands how captivating I find water and this, is the epitome of that emotion. I think everyone should have a waterfall in their home. ;)

Hazy Daze

A painting I was commissioned to do for my office. This was the smaller "sample" which has since found it's way to my daughters home. :) I love the colours in this, but I am still struggling with the acceptance of my work. I am seriously considering lessons. I think I have reached an impasse where my talent is concerned and I now need to work on technique and building of my knowledge of colour tone, highlight and blending. :) I'm certain this will bring more satisfaction within and also a greater degree of respect for the craft.

Sunstream

Painting I did (finally) for my daughter's birthday. I love how the sun appears to be cutting clear through the forest to touch the ground. It's almost passionate. I'm still working on technique ... this is something that I might decide to learn through lessons in the future. But for now, I'm happy just discovering what my limits are. 

This is another one I truly had difficulty letting go. But I know I can visit it anytime I want (and my daughter too! :P)

Samples for a mural

Three paintings that I quickly did up for work. I have been commissioned to paint a mural on one of the walls and needed to provide a few samples for selection. Still working on a couple to submit. 

I ADORE the beach/water one. Took me the least amount of time and it just feels like something I'd love to jump right into. The other two are peaceful to look at, but the colours in the beach one just bring me something that I cannot put a finger on. There is a feeling of calmness and happiness that swarms the mind and makes whatever is going on in my life that's upsetting, somehow okay. I need a larger one like this for my wall. lol Maybe I'll do a mural at MY place. :)

Alone

When life was young and everything new

And the sky was always a powder blue

Days were long

And all birds’ song

Illuminated love’s beauty true

The veiled light of her aura fell into my room early

Shaking me from dreams

As from her streams

All of tomorrow’s gain was like a stain

A stain on the heart of trust

Inside the dark there is a quiet peace

But nothing shivers like the cold of oneness

Thoughts get carried but never reach a destination

In the aloneness of morning

A voice is summoned, but barely heard

As its resonance breaks the shattered pieces

Until they no longer resemble life

Reflections only seem to magnify the hold

A heart stretches, looking for relief

Or truth in what it knows but cannot feel

There is a solidarity in being wordless

But at the cost of an essence that screams for release

Trapped, it struggles to break free from

Netting that holds its core in superficial conviction

There is a depth that the surface cannot comprehend

Inside a hollow that fills the soul

Life is seemingly less in control

Destiny knows wings and flies

When time proves difficult to try

And all that’s left is this oneness

A soft and breezy air in morning light

Sometimes enough, is more than a heart can stand

And there is loss within the darkness of being lonely            

Forgive me