Alone

When life was young and everything new

And the sky was always a powder blue

Days were long

And all birds’ song

Illuminated love’s beauty true

The veiled light of her aura fell into my room early

Shaking me from dreams

As from her streams

All of tomorrow’s gain was like a stain

A stain on the heart of trust

Inside the dark there is a quiet peace

But nothing shivers like the cold of oneness

Thoughts get carried but never reach a destination

In the aloneness of morning

A voice is summoned, but barely heard

As its resonance breaks the shattered pieces

Until they no longer resemble life

Reflections only seem to magnify the hold

A heart stretches, looking for relief

Or truth in what it knows but cannot feel

There is a solidarity in being wordless

But at the cost of an essence that screams for release

Trapped, it struggles to break free from

Netting that holds its core in superficial conviction

There is a depth that the surface cannot comprehend

Inside a hollow that fills the soul

Life is seemingly less in control

Destiny knows wings and flies

When time proves difficult to try

And all that’s left is this oneness

A soft and breezy air in morning light

Sometimes enough, is more than a heart can stand

And there is loss within the darkness of being lonely            

Forgive me

My Moon

Iridescent moon, spilling light
into the naked air of my room
With shimmering milky fingers
your draw is so complete
You absorb me as though I could dissolve
into the tiny fraction of peace
you allow the clutter of my soul

Your radiance softens the edges of disquietude
and bearing all things
you carry moments in your arms
from which glitter is scooped
and furnished into dreams,
then littered like fairy dust
across the sleeping world

My love intensifies
with each phase of your joy
until full, you overflow the sky
splashing down until the earth is drenched
in the blush of your majesty

 ~ * ~

I like to think that the moon is there even if I am not looking at it ~ Albert Einstein

The Longest Night (for the Winter Solstice)

A lone candle burns in the quiet of night
spilling shadows in the corners of my room
Snow falls in gentle glide to the ground
making the lack of you grow with intensity;
there is conflict within my heart
Time crawls in ancient boots
too heavy to gravitate without delay
leaving me in suspended want
No movement to disturb the silence
save the flicker of light the candle casts
and the soft flakes curving into grooves
along the window sill

What a bittersweet dream it is to love
and not be with the one person who inspires it
A longing falls tender on supple skin
gracefully stretched into gentle need
no words or photographs could ever soothe

A desire sent in aim across the glowing sky
spread by moonbeam and stars alike
to reach a waiting heart, also in need this night,
falls and dreams into his arms- a moment felt in earnest

There is such longing that sends the heart to ache

but we shall not despair
for there is a belief that no amount of distance
nor time could dispel
on this,
the longest night of the year ~

Copyright © roxannegaebel [12 - 21- 2007]

Clinging to Blue

Stealing in, you take my time
Even within memory’s break, you linger
Too alone in this midnight clutch
And I am soaked in words unsaid

The darkness racing through these veins
Has faded the light
And I want you to know
Every time I thought of you,
Every time, it made me blue

And I watched outside my window
A spectrum of colour dancing in the wind
Locked from my touch
And I clung to blue
The only range of me and you

Folding over in effort and affection
Life drifted uneasy
Until it escaped around a corner
Out of my sight and lost to motion

Now the stars fill my sky
And my wishes hold the hope
That Blue is not all there is ~



Copyright © roxannegaebel [12-09-2009]