Alone

When life was young and everything new

And the sky was always a powder blue

Days were long

And all birds’ song

Illuminated love’s beauty true

The veiled light of her aura fell into my room early

Shaking me from dreams

As from her streams

All of tomorrow’s gain was like a stain

A stain on the heart of trust

Inside the dark there is a quiet peace

But nothing shivers like the cold of oneness

Thoughts get carried but never reach a destination

In the aloneness of morning

A voice is summoned, but barely heard

As its resonance breaks the shattered pieces

Until they no longer resemble life

Reflections only seem to magnify the hold

A heart stretches, looking for relief

Or truth in what it knows but cannot feel

There is a solidarity in being wordless

But at the cost of an essence that screams for release

Trapped, it struggles to break free from

Netting that holds its core in superficial conviction

There is a depth that the surface cannot comprehend

Inside a hollow that fills the soul

Life is seemingly less in control

Destiny knows wings and flies

When time proves difficult to try

And all that’s left is this oneness

A soft and breezy air in morning light

Sometimes enough, is more than a heart can stand

And there is loss within the darkness of being lonely            

Forgive me

Farewell

As I let go of the past and tried desperately to muster up courage to face the daemons of my future endeavours,
this was born...

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Goodbye to indecision
To the philosophy of lets just wait and see
Time has no conscience
It cares not that we squander opportunity
Farewell, my guilt
That strangled-holds my heart
Forgiveness is not a luxury given in the dark,
And meant for others, alone

Goodbye to procrastination
To lazy days of leave it for tomorrow
Only to find that tomorrow becomes a never-do-it infinity
I’ll let you go, commiseration
For compassion need not always be partnered with empathy
Goodbye, control
I can not stop the war
That rages on around me, in spite of my bid or
Every.
Sleepless.
Night.

Be gone self-doubt
You have no power here
And no longer will you feed
Upon unfounded and lonely fear
Goodbye misery
I once called you friend
Knowing now, your darkened light
Was not a means to an end
(And I shall not miss you)

Farewell, farewell
To lonely days, filled with passionate need
I’ll dream, instead of future joy
And leave behind my greed
So long to negative judgement
You, I despise the most
Attacking all the kindnesses
While never looking back
Or laying claim for any destruction

(Evil knows thy name)

Farewell torment ..

hello release ~

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